I could make up all sorts of reasons, such as:
- I have all of these great pictures, but can't find the thingy that connects my camera to my laptop (true - my house is always in some sort of chaotic upheaval)
- My trainer beat me up (again true - it sucks being 45 and realizing that sitting on your ass for a year eating and drinking like you're Bacchus actually does widen the load - A LOT)
- I've been working my tail off at the stuff that actually brings in a paycheck (also true - I work at Overreactions R US)
- The meds hadn't kicked in (true - I'm just now starting to not lie on my back staring at the ceiling for three hours at a stretch)
- I'm lazy (most true)
No New Year's resolutions for me - the longest I've ever kept one was 3 1/2 hours. Still, I'm trying to turn over a new leaf. I had my measurements taken at the gym last night and almost cried when I saw how my body had changed.
I signed a letter of commitment with my trainer to do three days of cardio a week (not hard because I meet with her twice a week and I can't leave until I've done the deed), watch what I put in my mouth - and what comes out of my mouth (ok, my kids made me promise to that one). I will be stopping at Staples on the way home tonight to pick up one of those USB cables.
I also picked up one of the coolest gizmos to support me in becoming the svelte me that I used to be:
A Salton food scale that tells you the number of calories of each thing you weigh - it also tells you the carbs, fat and protein grams in each portion. For me, it provides a sobering look at just how many calories are in what I'm preparing. I've already decided that changing what I eat won't work - I'm a foodie and a wino at heart, but it will help me make some choices to either eat less of it or shift to a healthier way of preparing it. If it could only scream "NO! DO NOT SNEAK THAT FRENCH FRY" as I raise my hand to my mouth, it would be perfect.
It is definitely an attitude adjustment and not the first time I've had to make this - after my kids were born, I gained a large amount of weight and through Weight Watchers and living at the gym, I lost it and looked great. I kept it off for 10 years, but injuries and one family crisis after another pushed me off track. Now, 10 years later, it's much harder to get back on. I have no illusions of being the workout goddess I used to be (we're talking 20 BMI for god's sake), but I want to be healthy again. I just want have energy again.
Wish me luck everyone.