I could make up all sorts of reasons, such as:
- I have all of these great pictures, but can't find the thingy that connects my camera to my laptop (true - my house is always in some sort of chaotic upheaval)
- My trainer beat me up (again true - it sucks being 45 and realizing that sitting on your ass for a year eating and drinking like you're Bacchus actually does widen the load - A LOT)
- I've been working my tail off at the stuff that actually brings in a paycheck (also true - I work at Overreactions R US)
- The meds hadn't kicked in (true - I'm just now starting to not lie on my back staring at the ceiling for three hours at a stretch)
- I'm lazy (most true)
No New Year's resolutions for me - the longest I've ever kept one was 3 1/2 hours. Still, I'm trying to turn over a new leaf. I had my measurements taken at the gym last night and almost cried when I saw how my body had changed.
I signed a letter of commitment with my trainer to do three days of cardio a week (not hard because I meet with her twice a week and I can't leave until I've done the deed), watch what I put in my mouth - and what comes out of my mouth (ok, my kids made me promise to that one). I will be stopping at Staples on the way home tonight to pick up one of those USB cables.
I also picked up one of the coolest gizmos to support me in becoming the svelte me that I used to be:
A Salton food scale that tells you the number of calories of each thing you weigh - it also tells you the carbs, fat and protein grams in each portion. For me, it provides a sobering look at just how many calories are in what I'm preparing. I've already decided that changing what I eat won't work - I'm a foodie and a wino at heart, but it will help me make some choices to either eat less of it or shift to a healthier way of preparing it. If it could only scream "NO! DO NOT SNEAK THAT FRENCH FRY" as I raise my hand to my mouth, it would be perfect.
It is definitely an attitude adjustment and not the first time I've had to make this - after my kids were born, I gained a large amount of weight and through Weight Watchers and living at the gym, I lost it and looked great. I kept it off for 10 years, but injuries and one family crisis after another pushed me off track. Now, 10 years later, it's much harder to get back on. I have no illusions of being the workout goddess I used to be (we're talking 20 BMI for god's sake), but I want to be healthy again. I just want have energy again.
Wish me luck everyone.
2 comments:
Have you ever read French Women Don't Get Fat? It is inspiring for those of us who love good food and grog but want to stay fit. It's basically about buying high quality fresh foods, preparing them simply and lovingly, slowing down and truly savoring what we've created. In smaller portions, of course!
The book is humorous and sweet but it definitely shamed me into avoiding status as a gluttonous American!
You're 45 too? Good. There's two of us! It's a bitch, isn't it? I've made my peace with the fact that I'll never have the body I once did and am living by this crede: eat and drink in moderation; work out like a fiend.
Good luck, my friend!
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